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Thursday, January 27, 2005
we should be happy with what we have and be glad that we have so much. was a little depressed a while back but somehow recovered. after that wonderful band prac and the phy prac the next day. somehow somehow. see pracs are good :). :P. heh. and after i stopped being sad and irritable i looked around and SAW much more. i mean, she's so much more depressed cos she's too stressed and you can TELL that she is stressed out. like totally. and was feeling happy my depression's not that bad. and there are actually so many nice things around in school. i will learn to treasure band pracs, the band room, our sb, our batch, all the nice things and nice people. and i will try to fit into my class. sorry for being so horrible last year and ignoring practically everyone.. but my class is really nice, i just didn't feel like talking whenever i was in class. now it's a bit hard cos everyone has their own friends already but. i'll just try to be nice. yes? ok lunch is over. bye.
jasmine 1:49:00 PM
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Monday, January 17, 2005
let me think of what i wanted to talk about. i'm growing old! and never post for so long... can't really remember. so let me just talk about random things one at a time in no particular order.
that day when we tried that new song with some parts where only two people play... soph and i did it again. remember that unanimous squeak at a tempo at the most if-you-squeak-you-die-cos-it's-such-a-bloody-high-note [for us at that time lah...] note... felt like dying. didn't know whether to laugh at the amazing coincidence or to cry at our big screw up. anyway we did it again at the if-you-play-wrongly-you-die-cos-it's-a-bloody-two-people-part part. we both fumbled at that same note, i remember it's a G#, and i couldn't really tell because i was panicking to better-play-the-next-note-or-you-die-cos-we-can't-both-disappear! but i THINK i THINK that we played the same wrong note. how terrible :/.
sectionals on friday was really sad. soph left halfway so eyeballs took over. then she take until like very happy and dragged a bit, then when she had to leave she asked us HOW? like, end sectionals, duh... did you expect us to sit there and wait for your highness to come back today to continue taking us? retard. and still say we were lazy when we told you to end sectionals... :/. MY section batch... sometimes i think they're really weird. singing disgusting songs at the top of their voices in the band room today... hai. and took a walk around school cos they were feeling bored! o.O. someone pity me... heh.
so proud of my commonwealth essay :). did it until 2 am yesterday. but then it wasn't because it was due today or anything but because i just felt so happy writing it, and my thoughts just kept flowing, so i just wrote. but then there's a problem... i cut until cannot cut anymore, i even deleted at least 2-3 whole points, and i still have more than 1800 words. shit lah. and i think i'm cutting and cutting until the whole thing is becoming quite incoherent. how terrible. :/.
don't like the new com's keyboard... can't find the line i use to draw my diao diao faces :(. as in not the diao face like this --> -_-' but the diao diao face. so i'm resorting to using this face --> :/. which looks retarded and not diao enough. hm. tragic.
oh! i now have 2 tvs side by side, so i can watch two channels at the same time. which is good, in case you didn't know [this line addressed to people who don't watch tv :P]. now i can watch both zhong wu yan and jie da huan xi. haha. but i don't feel like watching tv today... also partly why i'm sitting here blogging... :P. hai.
i am proud of myself cos i have not handed in a piece of late work so far. though i know this is not going to last for long, i still have to be proud of myself while i still can right? :).
can't think of anything else i ever wanted to blog about. so never mind.
i have a new layout already, just waiting for the right time to use it, cos, you see, one has to feel quite desperate and in the depths of despair before one can use that layout or it will not really fit one's mood... hm.
bye :)
jasmine 7:11:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
mable came back today :):). and eyeballs too lah. but i haven't seen mable for longer than i haven't seen eyeballs, so i miss her more :). yay :). nice seeing both of you again :). haha. sound like we were separated for three years... but can't help it lah. it's true.
cca orientation tomorrow. tell you, i probably grew so fat over the hols that i cannot fit into my band skirt... hai. i mean, looking at how much i eat [i eat whenever i am bored...] and the regularity of my exercise [never.], obviously i have to grow fat :(. :P. too bad. never mind. the band skirt was always a bit big for me so maybe now it will be just right :). haha. glastnost [looks funny... or is is glasnost...] is sososososososo nice!!!! it sounds nice, and it's both sweet and cool, and it's interesting and fun to play, yet not to the point of innly difficult... ha. love glastnost [still going to spell it like that since both ways look funny and my instinct tells me THIS. haha. it's spelt THIS way.]. remember how i stared at the score and couldn't play a single note that first first woodwind sects we had. feel so sadded now cos actually it's not THAT hard. and enyi said she played the first note of every bar that time, and i couldn't even do THAT :(. ok so maybe i didn't have enough sense to. hai. stupid senseless little sec one. who couldn't play glastnost. how weird... both the songs are from THAT sectionals. and both our scores have xinyi's handwriting on it! yay :). yayyay :):). HA. :). we're considering playing swan lake again, since we haven't prepared anything for tomorrow. shall see :). soph and i haven't packed our concert file. oops. and emm and mable too. emm and mable have to pack cos they bi1 bu4 de2 yi3, no junior, but soph and i like packing our own concert file, so we said we would pack ourselves. and we haven't packed :P. we're going to pack tomorrow morning. heh. not last minute at all. :P.
my new maid is finally here!! ha. at first i didn't know she was here, cos i came home quite late. then i went into the kitchen and saw this shadow moving towards me cos i think she was going to come out, and got the fright of my life. :P. thought she was a robber or sth. or a murderer. heh.
i am getting sick of typing.. :(.
sims rocks! haha. i made our sb at first. in the kong family format, but with our own names. but then i didn't know you can get sent to military school so i didn't bother much about making them go to school... then suddenly one day emm got sent to military school and i realised they have to go to school or they get sent to military school :|. so the next day i tried to save soph and i by making us go to school cos our grades were one grade away from military school grades... but then being inexperienced, [and soph was disobedient :(], i couldn't get soph to school and she got sent to military school that day :P. so i was the only kid left and my grades improved and i was safer and safer every day... *phew*... but then our sb family no more emm and soph very sad, so i killed me and mable and eyeballs off and made another family :). haha. this time i called them kong long and kong que and kong zi and zuo bi kong and you bi kong. but i still can't remember if i'm zuo and soph's you or i'm you and soph's zuo... [as usual...] haha. but never mind we're twins anyway so i made them look the same :P. haha. sims is sososo fun :):). and now, in the new family, both kong long and kong que have ten for all the skills and they are business people and the three of us always have A+. :P. yi1 zhao1 bei4 she2 yao3, shi2 nian2 pa4 jing3 shen2. WA so cheem. haha. wish our lives were as simple as the sims... just go to school and you get A+, when anything is boring just fast forward it, etc etc... that day when i was using the microwave [yeah... i just acquired the skill of cooking maggie mee is the microwave... now i never have to learn how to light the stove. haha. wish it were as simple as lighting a bunsen burner... hai. :P], i almost felt like fast forwarding it. haha. and when i watch tv and the irritating adverts start i feel like fast forwarding it. imagine being able to fast forward all the time you're in school! yay :).
so proud of us... we finished the hols homework :). YAY! heh. just hope we have different teachers or we die :P. hope and pray... :P.
i am really bored. and
YAY! it's finally done!!! yay. bye :).
jasmine 11:00:00 PM
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Thursday, November 11, 2004
tried the set piece :). i like the second part more though... but we're not playing it :(. we're playing the first part with all the retarded songs :(. soph doesn't like the second part! o.o. because she doesn't recognise the songs there... but i like the second part more precisely cos i don't know the retarded Singapore songs... :|. haha.
about what he said on tuesday... i'm not really sure about the f&b thing... cos it's kind of true it doesn't have anything to do with our playing except for rhythm and all that... but it's also beneficial in other ways. so i don't know. but i agree on the invest thing though... i think if they join us sooner they will kind of er3 ru2 mu4 ran3 and learn faster etc... and i think they will be forced to improve faster... that's kind of good :). haha.
footdrills yesterday was retarded. there were only five from our batch, and grace was late. cos half our batch was away somewhere, busy, excused, didn't know, etc, and some ponned. ha. you had better do something really horrible to the people who ponned. so anyway, by some weird coincidence, all of us and most of the sec 2s were in one half of the squad so the four of them were fighting to get us. haha. venetia and hanxin won so soph and jiaying had to take the lots of sec ones squad :P. they only had about 3 sec 2s :P. so they came and begged venetia and hanxin for a sec 3 so eyeballs went to join them. haha. after break they happily informed me that venetia and hanxin, with their great kindness, also donated me to the sec one squad! :|. it was horrible k. you can't do more than one command without having to stop and get corrected/scolded. and i couldn't hear anyone else's timing at all so how was i supposed to coordinate with them! and the commanders were softer cos overall timing wasn't very loud anyway, so i couldn't hear half the commands :|. then i'll hear "8!" and i'm like HUH?? luckily after second break eyeballs and i switched with sanlee and xiling :P. haha. then they taught the sec ones all the f&b moves after fd so they could do the formation and steps and all that. when i demoed one of each, the wind blew my flag during basic turn and i almost dropped :|. oops. and my helicopter went out of control :P.
read this nice book :). had some disgusting parts, but some really nice parts too :). i guess that's all forever is, just one long trail of nows. and i guess all you can do is try and live one now at a time without getting too worked up about the last now or the next now. so nice :). wellz.
think my tuning is improving on the Eb now... and i can more or less play inn without screeching too much :). still sound really shrill, but at least not forced anymore :|. and retarded eyeballs thinks that i don't have to practise Bb cos there's no song i play Bb for now... :|. haven't seen anastasia, hope it doesn't have Eb... cos even though i try to practise on my Bb as well, can tell i'm deproving and deproving. :(. my stamina is like nothing... cos after about 45 mins or at most 1 hour, i find that i have done all the warmups i know of in every key i can do it on... hai. and my embouchure will die if i play for too long :(. hai.
i am bored. :(. maybe i shall sleep some more later :P. i always sleep now! cos i have nothing to do :P. hai. bye. :).
jasmine 10:06:00 AM
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Thursday, November 04, 2004
jasmine 6:51:00 PM
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Wednesday, November 03, 2004
just did the transcript of the interview. and it was terrible! i can't hear half our questions and he talks funnily so i don't know what he's saying sometimes :(. and after two hours of painstakingly deciphering greek code words and everything, the power tripped!!! i wanted to cry ok. i took so long and almost did half already and i forgot to save, and poof! it all disappeared :(. so horrible :(. so i saved once every few words after that :P. now i know what a horrible time soph had transribing our last interview. aww... poor soph poor jas. and we must not do any more face to face interviews ok... so ma fan... at most email only k? :).
my dad ate my breakfast cos he didn't know i was at home :P. haha. so i made maggie mee :). yum yum. haha. it's the only thing i know how to make mah... and i use microwave some more :P. cos i don't know how to use the stove mah. besides, i'm scared of fire. hai. and my dad mopped the floor today so it's much cleaner :). it hasn't been mopped for so long since my mom is so busy having to go to work and do housework, and again, i don't know how :P. hai. haha. i shall let my sister use the com now... she has been deprived for so long and her exams just finished today.. i'm so nice right :). bye :).
jasmine 1:42:00 PM
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Tuesday, November 02, 2004
I listened to the radio
Waiting for my favorite songs
When they they played I'd sing along
It made me smile
Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well
every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-wo-wo
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're starting to sing
So fine
When they get to the part
Where he's breaking her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more
Looking back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed
It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more
i love this song... not really sure about the last two verses... copied it off a website :P. i always know the start of the song and forget the end. heh. but the song is nice anyway :). this song is so.. correct. as in songs are like that... you never forget them and many years down the road you still know them, and you still know the words.. and somehow they make you think of things that happened long long ago :). still remember music is a universal language eh how random. but it's a nice phrase anyway. and i think it's true too :). anyway i've been really random these few days cos i'm not using my brain anymore :P. ya. look how random that sentence was... hai. watched this weird show called the bambeloo tree or something and it's about this fish who wanted to live in the ocean but his friends who lived with him in the bambeloo tree told him how the sea was salty and there were sharks that eat small fish in the ocean and he decided not to go. heh :). and i watched sesame street. can you tell me how to get how to get to sesame street :). i still like elmo the best :). and i think ernie looks like he has bad hair day all year round. poor thing. oh well. and i slept a lot. mostly cos i was bored, but a bit cos i was sleepy too. dunno why i'm so sleepy k. i've been a total couch potato since saturday and i don't think it takes a lot of energy to sit and stare :|. but i'm still tired. and i'm hungry now :(. anyway, i'm sick of not having a maid... we should get a maid soon. hai. heh. see how good i am at depending on others to clear up my mess... :P. now i have to do everything myself :(. haha. fine i'm a pig. so what. heh. shall go back to watching tv :P.
jasmine 9:43:00 AM
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Sunday, October 31, 2004
jasmine 1:29:00 PM
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Saturday, October 23, 2004
it was so so funny last night :D. haha. cos my sister stole my cow called moo moo so i took her elephant called winks. and my dad came and wanted to sit on the sofa with her mouse called mousy on it, so he picked it up and sat down and started playing with mousy :D. then my sister was like squealing and squealing for us to return winks and mousy. so i told her exchange so she had to give moo moo back. so she said ok and we were like one, two, three and i saw my dad was going to throw mousy to me too :):). and my sister couldn't see cos he was behind her. haha. so at three i threw winks to my dad and my dad threw mousy to me. and my sister threw moo moo to me too cos i looked like i was really going to throw [i really threw... :P]. so i got moo moo and mousy and my dad got winks and my sister didn't get her mousy and winks back :D. haha. and she squealed some more and just came to get it. haha. :).
jasmine 9:42:00 AM
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Friday, October 22, 2004
can't believe i survived the exams...
actually the exams were quite good :)...
monday. eng p1, p2. paper one was bad... the horrible article they gave us to convert had no info relevant to the expo topic at all. bad. p2 was nice :). the summary was actually only of 4 paras [or was it 3...] and not the whole compre as usual. yay.
tuesday, chinese. chinese just totally sucks ok. forget it.
wednesday. ss and geog. very happy for my ss :). for the first time in my whole life i was writing and writing and didn't spend half the time thinking of what to write and the other half trying to phrase my points so that they didn't sound so fluffy while being fluffy at the same time :P. and i managed to write everything i wanted to write except for 15 words in the last question. ...in portraying the tension and showing why the good friday agreement was not going well. oh well. it was still good :). geog was nice too :). although i'm a bit disappointed at myself for doing the coastal question so sloppily after spending the MOSTEST time on it... :(. [can tell my english is so good too :P]. i think it was a good humans day for me :).
yesterday, chem. the paper was so easy :). as in no so so easy but easier than i expected :). BUT I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I READ THAT BLOODY QUESTION WRONGLY!!!!!!!!!! apparently it was what is the catalyst used for in the reaction or sth. and i read it as what is the catalyst used in the reaction or what is the catalyst used for the reaction or sth!!!!!!! and i put vanadium (V) oxide which is so NOT. and it's such an obvious and giveaway question!! :(:(. HATE MYSELF.
today phy and math. phy was quite nice too :). i mean, considering my last few tests... i should be proud of myself if i even manage to do all the questions. so, i am proud of myself :). yay :). math was ok... hardish... ok... i think i thought it was hard cos of that horrible difficult first question they plopped right on top there so i panicked... but i did the rest quite okly :). so i only left those two marks there blank :). considering it IS math and it IS me doing it, i think it's pretty good :). ok i shall forget about it and be happy for the next five days. and depending on my results, though i highly doubt it, maybe i can continue being happy on the sixth and seventh days too when we get our papers back...
haven't touched the com this whole week... shall find some game to play. even my painstakingly practised and improved typing has deproved :(. i'm like typing how slowly with all the typos...
haha it's my sister's turn to have exams next week. [wonder if she has dreamt about me... :P]. her marking days are this week so she had to study through the marking days anyway [not like us... yay :)]. anyway i don't see why she's studying so much. she's only P5... in P5, you can not study at all and still get at least 75. she's just too mugger ok. i wonder if she's really my sister... i mean, like, look at me! cram the day before...
finally satisfied my macs fries craving :). i suddenly had this craving for macs fries in the middle of some paper :P. and obviously i couldn't go and eat it cos i had to come home and cram more everyday. so i could eat it today and i DID eat it today :). yay :).
haven't touched my instru the whole week cos i was busy cramming stuff into my head everyday... hai. i'm going to die. maybe i should practise later. ok i WILL.
yay hols :). but i still hate them for making us go back for the stupid first aid thing :(. so irritating. :(. HATE YOU :(. bye.
jasmine 5:35:00 PM
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Sunday, October 17, 2004
jasmine 9:48:00 AM
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Saturday, October 16, 2004
jasmine 6:42:00 PM
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
jasmine 10:23:00 PM
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Saturday, October 09, 2004
it's so early now... having ss makeup lesson too like soph last week. but then mine is at ten!! irritating. so my mom brought me here so early so she could go somewhere and i'm like bored to death ok. hai. i don't see the point of ss make up lesson when i'm probably going to fall asleep ok. but then i don't exactly want to have the lesson with the small group of people who won't be coming today, so i better come :P. hiaya haiya haiya haiya haiyahaiyahaiyahaiyahaiyahaiyahaiya abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz now i know my abc next time won't you sing with me? yay. bleah bleah bleah look i can type! how ironic... i typed type wrongly just now. lala. so bored... :(. shall go and see what else i can do.
jasmine 8:50:00 AM
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
jasmine 11:32:00 PM
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i'm trying to learn how to type properly.. like all the pros and their hands don't go flying about the keyboard like me... i'm a bit slower typing properly, but there's less typos . as in, from what i can see from what i just typed. :D.
went with soph to collect the tape from her yesterday.. made me wake up so early . luckily she was there, or i would have run into the wall and killed myself. [maybe i would kill soph first :P]. and it's all your fault why is your ss make up lesson so early [ya ya... not remedial...].
then yesterday i slept late too cos i was reading this book and forgot to sleep :P. lassie come home . about this dog who came this long long way to find her owner who had to sell her cos they were too poor. but she still went to find them... it was so sweet . so i slept at 3 plus >|. so i woke up and couldn't go back to sleep and i'm so tired now :P. but i don't feel like sleeping . haiya. i'm just weird ok.
hate practising at home. besides the fact that i sound bad inside and attract stares outside, my mom is so totally discouraging. she keeps saying that the clarinet is such a noisy instru and that i sound really bad . and no matter how loudy i play on the piano she doesn't say anything. and i'm quite sure i can play the piano much louder than i can play the clarinet [very... like duh]. it's so so not fair. and so irritating. my mom's just biased against clarinets ok. so unfair. and lately my sister has been learning from her. she goes shhhhhh!!!!! at me when she's trying to watch the tv and i'm practising. even when i can hear perfectly well what the people are saying. o.o
i don't want to mug.. so sick of mugging . and all i've done is a little bit of chem. i am so going to die. i'm not even a hundredth there and i'm sick of mugging already :|. hai. shall do something else now. sick of blogging. [wow.. can see my concentration [chem!] span is SO long]
jasmine 6:14:00 PM
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Friday, October 01, 2004
anyway, i didn't manage not to do work today :(. we did our physics performance task. oh well. but we only drew graphs, it was quite fun anyway :). yay. so i shall pretend we never did work today :D.
jasmine 4:16:00 PM
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